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| Like oh my godddddd! It's been an ages since the last time I sign in to Xanga. Last year kot. What the fuckk? Hahahahaha, sorry lupa password okayy, out of the blue teringat balik. So, omg theres so much to write about. I am very happy with my life now, blessed with supportive family, wonderful friends and not to forget Aidiel  starting to coping my life as a student now, it's fun tho. Okay, seriously I have to stop here, assignments macam haram. Teehee! AND AND AND AND I miss Santa, Tee, Ieka & Dana!  | | |
| hmm. 33days. yeah. still i'm not over him. haha! bodoh kan! i know, but its okay. what comes around, goes around. i do believe in karma. so, guess i'll just need to find the strength. i know, i'll get over this soon enough. guys are tough, but girls are TOUGHER.  thanks to my girlfriends. i love you, sayang. thanks for being there when i need you the most. | | |
| today is my first day of fasting and its 1.53 pm and i'm bored. hmm. i miss him. yeah, i do. i'm tired of being fooled and i'm tired of waiting. i know, i shouldn't been waiting because he asked me to move on, but i don't know. i'm afraid if i move on, and he came back and and the feelings is not same as before, oh god! i know i shouldn't put any hopes in this but then still.. i love him, yes very much. its been a month and still i'm trying my best here to survive. i'm tired of crying. it hurts. its killing me inside, slowly. where are you baby? everyday, every single day i searched for him all around ampang, yeah - i know i'm stupid, i know i've been acting like a insane but then tell me what should i do? this is the worst part of my life. last year, i celebrated my merdeka, my fasting month with him. now? i'm all alone. i know i have my wonderful family and lovely friends, but i want him to be part of me like we used to. love is painful. seriously it is. i thought his the one. you proved me wrong, rizam. i am not what i used to be before. mama said i've changed a lot. i'm sorry, ma. but theres nothing i could do. god! help me. i feel like dying. | | |
| oh hey people! haha! i am so new to this blog thingy! blame dana - shes the one who introducing this xanga to me  thanks babe! i wauf you! well, i've been thru very hard moment of my life. surviving from the pain that i caused by myself. haih. i am so stressed up with my finals which is on monday! and i havent touch anything yet! not even the paper - yeah, i know. its stupid crying over a guy. but entah la. ouhhh, cut all the craps! today was fun! went out for drink with my darling abby at oldtown, ampang. and we bumped into his ex! haha! and she was like screaming inside the car! sorry yang, you memang scream macam orang gila ok. but then she managed to control her emotion, proud of you b! not like me, so can't control anything. heh. well, guess thats it for today. will write again late. mwa! | | |
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